11/19/2014

Afraid NeuroExam

I am so annoyed at myself for not being good at this!

I am not used to failing and I am so scared that I am loosing faith that I won’t fail. I need 96/120 or 80/100 in the neurology exam (it depends on the number of items) I am so scared. Scared for my whole freaking life right now.

And I can only express it here. I guess. I hate telling people my insecurities. I mean maybe sometimes to my sister when I am in the mood or if I just kept on thinking about it over and over again that I really have to tell someone. And that someone is my sister.

Blood makes it all right because they have no choice but to love you no matter what. But friends?, College or highschool? That is a completely another story.

I am just not comfortable enough to share those thoughts. Not yet. Not now, and maybe not ever.

11/13/2014

Finals

Well, it's the finals week and I have been studying (more like cramming). And within the week, I have met up with my high school friends twice. Too many times than I dare to even imagine to spend time (and a lot of money) with them. It feels weird, knowing that I just realized that they will be a considerable part of my life. huh. Actually, I never thought I would continue to get in touch with them after college but here we are now. Still going to Starbucks for catch-ups and what-nots.

Friends really are forever.
Hahaha I can't believe I just realized that now, and what I meant this time is with conviction and real evidence from my real life and not just from stories, fan fictions or mangas.

I feel like I'm the most skeptical open minded person. (contradictions, although I'm probably not the only one)

Back to Histology :)

11/04/2014

After doing it so many times, faking your emotions gets easier.

BOO

That is Blood of Olympus, the last book of the Heroes of Olymous book series. And I have not yet bought it *sad face*

But I was able to read it during our pseudosembreak, we were at BGC and naturally we drifted to Fully Booked. There were a lot of BOO copies and I just had to sit down and read it. I only had a few hours left of the day so I decided to only read Nico's part, or the ones where his name appears.

I swear everytime I remember Nico and his ending of the book, I get teary-eyed. Finally he has a sort-of-happy ending. And this time with a new "love interest"! I got on that ship faster than a speeding bullet! Solangelo (nico di angelo/will solace) is such a cute pairing! And I love how will is a son of Apollo and he is a medic! So yay for associations with my profession! I love their dynamics and how Nico was able to finally tell Percy about his crush on him and how he let his crush go, and then suddenly a new one arises. Sure it was just a small hint, but that hint is already a great big show sign for us fangirls!

Of course, med life has not been so forgiving for all my dalliances with other things except for medical related things. We have upcoming Neuro pracs and long exam that I should really concentrating on because I have a failing grade. I do not want to repeat this subject! So help me God!

After this Neuro thing I am giving myself some luxury by either watching some tv shows and/or reading some solangelo fanfics.
Happy Nico is my drug and I need it like I need food.