I am so annoyed at myself for not being
good at this!
I am not used to failing and I am so scared
that I am loosing faith that I won’t fail. I need 96/120 or 80/100 in the
neurology exam (it depends on the number of items) I am so scared. Scared for
my whole freaking life right now.
And I can only express it here. I guess. I hate
telling people my insecurities. I mean maybe sometimes to my sister when I am
in the mood or if I just kept on thinking about it over and over again that I really
have to tell someone. And that someone is my sister.
Blood makes it all right because they have
no choice but to love you no matter what. But friends?, College or highschool? That
is a completely another story.
I am just not comfortable enough to share
those thoughts. Not yet. Not now, and maybe not ever.